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two of a kind
single - released May 23, 2024

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I fake cried one time
Just to see what you'd say
Mm, you went away

I guess it worked
I guess it worked
I guess it worked
Mm-mm
My bad, ha

But babe I saw what you were doing
You bury you face in your hands
You put all these words in my mouth now
You can shove them all right up your ass

I'm glad you lied
I don't feel bad now
I guess it worked
Mm-mm

I, I lied one time (It's not my fault)
It's not my fault that you stayed (that you stayed)
Mm
I didn't pay (I didn't pay)

I'm glad you lied
I don't feel bad now
I guess it worked
Mm-mm

Two of a kind (Two of a kind)
I see your lies (I see your lies)
Two of a kind (Two of a kind)
And you see mine

Two of a kind (Two of a kind)
I see your lies (I see your lies)
Two of a kind (Two of a kind)
And you see mine

Do you ever feel
As though you are feeling every
Feeling

'Cause my mind is playing tricks on me
Telling me I'm going
Insane

(ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)

track two: wielded lovers
I broke my own heart
Sharp as knives I wielded lovers
I tore me apart
Did everything wrong over and over and over
Mm

Isn't it romantic to be used
Isn't it romantic to live to be accused
Is this what fate feels like
A sharp compelling touch
Is this what fate feels like
I don't like it that much, I

Broke my own heart
Sharp as knives I wielded lovers
I tore me apart
Did everything wrong over and over
Mm

How can I change if leave is all they do
How can I change if nobody tells me to
Ooh

Gained another scar along the inside of my heart
You'd think I'd learn by now I guess I'm not that smart
I thought I could be happy living idle in their fantasies
Gave me an inch I saw a mile
I thought that we could make it, guess that's just how well I faked it
Love at first site, ended up gouging out my eyes

(I) broke my own heart
Sharp as knives I wielded lovers
I tore me apart
Did everything wrong over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over

I should, I could
I should, I will
I should, I could
I won't
I should, I could
I should, I will
I should, I could
I will never be
Happy living idle in their silly little fantasies
Not much a secret, I bet you could tell
But I swore I'd never tell

How can I change if leave is all they do
How can I change if nobody tells me to
How can I change
Just tell me what to do
How can I change
I finally told me to

(I) Broke my own heart
Sharp as knives I wielded lovers
I tore me apart
Did everything wrong over and over and over and over and over and over, over (and over and over)

How can I change (I broke my own heart)
How can I change
Not much a secret, I bet you could tell
But I swore I'd never tell (never tell)

track three: paper thin

The things we do to hold onto
The people we think that we need

I wanna fly away with these paper thin wings, but
I'm stuck up here on this hundred foot high string

I feel my feet slip out from under me
See me falling in a slow-mo scene
I wish I had the faith to make the leap but
I knew somehow I'd be free

The things we do to hold onto
The people we think that we need

I remember all the good times like
Fluffy white clouds they covered my eyes
Kept me from recognizing the person that I became

The things we do (the things we do)
To hold onto (to hold onto)
The people we think (the people that we think)
That we need (that we really don't need)
Might push them away

I feel my feet slip out from under me
See me falling in a slow-mo scene
I wish I had the faith to make the leap but
I knew somehow I'd be free

I wanna fly away with these paper thin wings, but
I'm stuck up here on this hundred foot high string

I wanna fly away
I wanna fly away

track four: poison

I love you
Do you love me?

What's this feeling, young love or young lust
Takes my body, where's my soul
Infatuated but I'm so naive
Burning, longing to feel complete

Boy meets girl and girl meets boy
Hearts aflutter, overjoyed
Pick my poison, bittersweet
Tell myself it's love, repeat
Boy meets girl and girl meets boy
Hearts aflutter, overjoyed
Picked my poison, bittersweet
Tell myself it's love, repeat
It's love, repeat

(We were never) We were never friends but not now enemies
I still feel your touch but it's a memory (thank God)
Would you recognize me with a shaved head
And you'd never find me in a man's bed
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(A man's bed)

(I promise I tried, but she was just someone I couldn't be)
Manic pixie dream girl just wasn't me
Not here to make you feel complete
Won't try too hard, too hard to please
Anybody but me

We were never friends but not now enemies
Still feel your touch but its a memory (thank God)
Would you recognize me with a shaved head ('cause people don't)
And you'd never find me in a man's bed (yeah, no)

You'd never find me in a man's bed
You'd never find me in a man's bed
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(You'd never find me in a man's bed)
(A man's bed)
(A man's bed)

Boy meets girl and girl meets boy
Hearts aflutter, overjoyed
Pick my poison, bittersweet
Tell myself it's love, repeat

track five: alone in love

Walking up the cold, cold street
Arm in arm, going out to eat
I thought that we were meant to be
Took her out and I held her hand
Took her home but in the end
We weren't meant to be

She wasn't what I thought
I wasn't what she thought I'd be
She didn't want me
Ah, ah, ah, ah

This wasn't what I thought
I'm not who I thought I'd be
But that's up to me

So I take her out and I let her know
That she is beautiful
That she is meant to be
I take me home and I cuddle up
Make sure that she knows that she's enough
That she's worthy of love
Of love
Ah
Love, love
Alone in love, love
Love, love
Mm, ah
Love, ah

track six: turn for the worse

What do I want

My life might look a little different than yours, and
My life might take a turn for the worse
My life might look a little different than yours, but
That don't mean I need to be cured
I do what I want
I do what pisses you off
I do what I want
I do what pisses you off

Right now I feel like I'm flying, and
Right now I feel like trying, and
Right now I don't feel like dying, and
That's a new feeling for me
Yeah
(What do I want)

My life might look a little different than yours, and
My life might take a turn for the worse
My life might look a little different than yours, but
That don't mean I need to be cured
No, that don't mean I need to be cured
No, that don't mean I need to be cured
Ooh
I do what I want
I do what pisses you off
I do what I want
I do what pisses you off

I know what I don't want, what I don't want
I don't know what I want, what do I want (I do what I want)
I know what I don't want, what I don't want
I don't know what I want, what do I want
I know what I don't want, what I don't want (I do what I want)
I don't know what I want, what do I want
I know what I don't want, what I don't want (I do what I want)
I don't know what I want, what do I want (want)

(What do I want) Right now I feel like I'm flying, and
Right now I feel like trying, and
Right now I don't feel like dying, and
That's a new feeling for me (yeah)
That's a new feeling for me
That's a new feeling for me
Oh
Ooh, what do I want

My life might look a little different than yours, and
My life might take a turn for the worse
My life might look a little different than yours, but
That don't mean I need to be cured
No, that don't mean I need to be cured
No, that don't mean I need to be cured, Ooh

I know what I don't want, what I don't want
I don't know what I want, what do I want
I know what I don't want, what I don't want
I don't know what I want, what do I want
What do I want

track seven: relapse
La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la
La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la
La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
I just want to go far away
La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)
I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)
I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)
I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)
I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)
I just want to go far away (I just want to go far away)

La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
La la la, la la la, la la la la la la la la

track eight: fire
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
Live in these times anymore
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
See through these eyes anymore
But this mind is kind and this heart is true
I guess that I could see this through
Ooh

See I think that I would be just fine
If I didn't have to try and find myself
But I refuse to be confined to a tiny cell inside my mind
To a tiny cell inside my mind

I don't wanna, I don't wanna
Live in these times anymore
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
See through these eyes anymore
But this mind is kind and this heart is true
I guess that I could see this through

I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(Live in these times anymore)
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(See through these eyes anymore)
(But this mind is kind and this heart is true)
(I don't wanna, I don't wanna)

See I think that I would be just fine
If I didn't have to try and find myself
But I refuse to be confined to a tiny cell inside my mind
To a tiny cell inside my mind

I used to envy those who would choose the norm
The ones who could and would and wanted to conform
But now I see, there's something in me
I want to find the fire

(Fire) I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(The fire) Live in these times anymore
(Fire) I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(Find the fire) See through these eyes anymore
(The fire, fire) But this mind is kind and this heart is true
I want to find the fire

But it's really no use to, and I'm getting so used to being used
But it's really no use to, and I'm getting so used to being used
But it's really no use to, and I'm getting so used to being used
But it's really no use to, and I'm getting so used to being used
Getting so used to being used
I want to find the fire

(Fire) I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(The fire) Live in these times anymore
(Fire) I don't wanna, I don't wanna
(The fire) See through these eyes anymore
(Fire, the fire) But this mind is kind and this heart is true
(Fire) I guess that I could see this through

I want to find the fire (I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
Fire, the fire (I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
Fire, the fire (I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
(I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
Fire, the fire (I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
(I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
(I don't wanna, I don't wanna)
I guess that I could see this through

track nine: young
This is me when I was young

This is me when I was young
Four years old and loved the sun
Ran around barefoot and ignored my name (Alydia)
Turned every moment into a game

Time is like a carousel
Just when you know where you are things will change
Over and over (and over)
For all your days

This is me when I was young
Nineteen years old, a contradiction
Hated myself but loved everyone
Crying from heartache on bottles of rum (rum)

So, drink your one glass of red wine a day
Laugh til your cheeks hurt and love all your grays
You and I both know that it won't be long 'til you say

This is me when I was young (young)
Back when we all knew how to have fun
Long before heartache and bottles of rum (rum)
This is me when I was young (young)

Time is like a carousel
Just when you know where you are things will change
Over and over (and over)
For all your days

This is me when I was young

track ten: old men in the sky
All my life was told that I was being watched
I was being watched, I was being watched
All my life I felt like I was being watched
I was being watched, I was being watched
Watched
Watched, ooh

I could not escape, I could not escape them
I could not escape, I could not escape
Old men
Watching
"Old men are watching"

Eyes, eyes, (They see me) eyes
Eyes, eyes, (They see you) eyes
Eyes, eyes, (They see us) eyes
Eyes, eyes, eyes

If you don't get what I'm talking 'bout
I envy you, I envy you
If all your life you're told they knew your whereabouts
You would feel 'em too, you would feel 'em too
The eyes
Eyes, eyes, eyes
The eyes, eyes

Of the old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Getting freaky watching (my mental breakdowns)
Getting creepy watching (two girls get it on)
Just up there watching (our whole world here crash and burn)
Just up there watching

Eyes, eyes, eyes
Eyes, eyes, eyes
But I, I'm alone now (Eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes)
No more eyes
Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Yeah, I, I, yeah (Old men in the sky)
I, I yeah (Old men in the sky)
I, I'm alone now (Old men in the sky, old men in the sky)

All my life was told that I was being watched
I'm not being watched, I'm not being watched
All my life I felt like I was being watched
I'm not being watched, I'm not being watched
Watched
Watched
Mm, mm-mm

Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky
Old men in the sky

track eleven: september moon
September moon
I wait for you
Stars shining above
Loves and leaves falling
September moon
I wait for you
Oo

September moon
I wait for you
Come now tenderly
Loves and leaves falling
September moon
I wait for you
Oo

September moon
Come now soon
September moon
Come now soon
Harvest moon, moon
Come now soon, soon
September moon
I wait for you
Oo (I wait for you)

September moon
Come now soon
Stars shine above
Loves and leaves falling
September moon
Come now soon

September moon
I wait for you
(September moon, I wait for you)

track twelve: everything i do
I'm good at everything I do
Though it may take me a try or two
You don't know me and I don't know you
But I think that you'll find
I'm good at everything I do

Lights are dim and in the wind I see you grinning through the mirror smoke
I know what it means that I feel you in my veins
You have my destiny
How can I make you believe
How can I make you see
How can I make you see

I'm good at everything I do
Though it may take me a try or two
You don't know me and I don't know you
But I think that you'll find
I'm good at everything I do

You can come on over, come on just a little closer lucky clover
You know what it means that you feel me in your veins
We found our destiny
This isn't make believe
You know that what you see
Is no mirage you feel me

I'm good at everything I do (everything I do)
Though it may take me a try or two (try or two)
You don't know me and I don't know you (know you)
But I think that you'll find
We're good at everything we do

I'm good at everything I do (We're good at everything we do)
Though it may take me a try or two (try or two)
You don't know me and I don't know you (know you)
But I think that you'll find (we do)
We're good at everything we do (everything we do)
We're good at everything, everything we do (we do)
(We're good at everything, everything we do)
I'm good at everything I do
We're good at everything we do

track thirteen: my own god
Holy, holy
Holes inside me
Perfect image
Yet so inherently unclean

I'll be my own god
All the bread and all the wine
I'll be my own god
My own way for my own life

I'll follow my heart and I'll follow my mood
And I'll follow the sun and the phases of the moon
I'll adorn myself with jewels
Silver and gold to get over the bruises
Sing my heart out 'cause nothing can stop me now
All by the power of who
Myself

I'll be my own god
All the bread and all the wine
I'll be my own god
My own way for my own life

I am divine, I am divine
I am divine, I am divine

Holy, holy
Holes inside me
Perfect image
Yet so inherently unclean (Raise your hands up to heaven)
I'll be my own god

I'll be my own god
All the bread and all the wine
I'll be my own god
My own way for my own life

I'll be my own god
All the bread and all the wine
I'll be my own god
My own way for my own life

track fourteen: the slow life
I live the slow life
Time won't pass me by
No more fast lanes
Only window panes and staring
Longing for my soul
No more boredom
Just thinking about
Every single thing I've ever done
In a good way though
Time won't pass me by
Oh I live the slow life

I live the slow life
Time won't pass me by
No more fast lanes
Only window panes and staring
Longing for my soul

No future is promised
I'm just being honest
I will float through space and time
Til the day I die
I live the slow life
Time won't pass me by
Clouds will in the sky
Watch them go left to right
Day turns into night

If we measure in time (time)
We'll never be fine (fine)
I live the slow life
Time won't pass me by
 

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